I decided to speak publicly about my pregnancy.. I always keep my personal life private from my social networks but I believe I can help other moms that are going through the same and it will also help me if I speak about it…
From the moment I found out I was having twins , the term “preterm labor” started buzzing in my ear. I was so small when I got pregnant, I actually competed at my last fitness competition the NPC Titans back in October when I was 2 months pregnant already! I had no idea I was pregnant while on stage. I found out weeks after the show. I was so fit and my abdominal wall was so tight that I didn’t show until I was 4 months and from then every day my belly grew bigger and bigger! I had the pointiest tummy ever!
You must be wondering how it’s possible that I still appear in magazine covers and articles…well as soon as I find out I was pregnant I schedule many photo shoots as I knew it will be a while until I will be able to shoot and work again…thats why I still have publications coming out every month even now while I’m at the hospital…
All my latest pictures posted in Facebook are pretty much recent and I am pregnant in all of them… anyways as soon as I started getting bigger I started to worry as it felt that my body couldn’t carry 2 babies…
I started having symptoms of labor at 26 weeks I was having more contractions than a woman that is about to give birth!!! I was having contractions every 3 minutes… I kept going to the Doctor and he kept telling me it was normal for twins… deep inside me I knew it wasn’t right… it wasn’t normal …but I listened to the Doctor and went home on bed rest… I research and found out that seventy percent of multiples are born before their due date and I started to freak out…
I maintained a healthy pregnancy the entire time and tried to be positive but it got harder and harder to the point that I couldn’t walk to the bathroom.. my legs will shake and my lower back was in so much pain from the extra weight…
I had all these symptoms, still my Doctor sent me home… these were all my symptoms:
- More than four or five contractions per hour
- Regular contractions that increase in frequency
- Rhythmic or persistent pelvic pressure
- Cramps, similar to menstrual cramping
- Diarrhea and upset stomach
- A change in vaginal discharge
- Uneasy or urgent sense that something is wrong
I decided to come back to the hospital and this time another Doctor examined me… I was dilated to 1.5 cm… meaning I was in labor at only 28 weeks ( 7 months)
The doctors immediatley admitted me to the hospital and began proper meds to help slow things down. I started crying and hoped that the doctors were able to stop my labor for a couple of more weeks so my babies will be able to grow a lil more before coming to the world..
After about9 hrs of magnesium they transfered me to the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) hospital by ambulance.. I was praying I will not deliver in the ambulance as my contractions kept getting worse… once I got there doctors tried everything to stop labor, my contractions slowed down a little but they were stronger…they gave me different medications, such as, magnesium sulfate (a tocolytic that will slow contractions of the uterus) intravenously but it didn’t work….24 hrs later my new Doctor that I loved rushed me for an emergency c section… I knew 50% of twins are born prematurely but not so prematurely!!!
This has been the hardest thing I ever faced in my entire life… while in surgery I was in a cloud the only thing I remember is trying to look over the green sheet to see if my babies were ok. On April 6 at 12.28pm baby Gianni was born weighting 3.1 oz and measure 14.3 inches. Nicco was second only weighing 2.11 oz and measure 15.1 inches. They were so little….and they were both crying.. that sound was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. Doctors updated me soon and they were both healthy.
Gianni is off the ventilator already and gaining weight. Nicco was baby B and second babies struggle a little more so he is still with the ventilator but getting stronger everyday. There are may risks involved with babies born this early. All we can do is pray that they continue to grow and get stronger. I only heard Nicco cry after he was born, now he has tubes all over so I wont hear his cry anymore until doctors remove his ventilator. I cant wait for that day to come.
They will stay in the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) for 5 to 10 weeks just like if they were inside my tummy. So far all the test came ok and everyday I pray that these test continue to come back ok.
Due to my c section I was in the hospital room for 4 days barely able to walk, today the Doctor removed my stitches and sent me home but I decided to stay for 3 more days… NICU hospitals have rooms for moms that feel not ready to go home. I am not prepared mentally to leave the hospital without my babies but I have to remain myself that my babies are in the best possible care they can have right now.
I am not able to hold them yet but I make sure I visit them every 2 hours and talk to them.. They recognize my voice I can see it in there lil faces when I talk to them. I can’t breastfeed them yet so I make sure I pump and store the milk for when there able to digest better. It’s very important for premies to take breast milk as it helps advance growing process, it is the best gift I can give to them right now and unfortunatley the only thing I can do. Bonding process is hard when you can’t hold your baby but without a doubt I am bonding more and more everyday and today I changed Nicco’s diaper for first time!
After my experience I want to help other twin moms to the importance of listening to your body and alway seek advice of a qualified professional that you trust. I had the worst experience with my doctor that always made me think everything was ok even when I knew it wasn’t. Don’t be afraid of changing Doctors until you find the right one for you.
One day we will all look back and remember this days and smile but as for now all prayers will be appreciated. It’s very overwhelming to see my new babies with unknown wires, tubes , glasses to protect there little eyes and monitors all over…intense feelings of responsibility or that I could have done something to change it are extremely hard to deal with.
This is gonna be my most special section of my blog where I will speak from my heart through this difficult process, everyday I will speak about my babies recovery, challenges , ups and downs and getting back in shape after twins.
I want to be a fit mom for my babies, they need a strong healthy mom right now and I will do anything I can that is gonna benefit them. I put on 40 lbs in my pregnancy, twin bellies are much bigger than singletons so by 6 months I already measured full term. I will show my progression with pictures every week until I go back on stage. Every competition I will do from now on will have meaning, I will do it for them and I will bring them to my shows so they can see mommy!!:) and I will bring them home trophies.. HAHA
All my family is in Spain thanks to the new technology like Skype they have seen my babies. I am so grateful to my husband, my family and friends for the support, seeing my lil angels like this is very hard and without all of you it would be harder. As you know I have dealt with many adversities growing up but having premature twins is, perhaps, the biggest challenge I’d ever faced.
I will try to transform this emotional roller coaster into one of great personal growth with the help of all of you.
There is no words I can find to say to all of these people in the NICU that are caring for my babies. It is amazing You should be thanked every single day for what you do for a living. THANK YOU!!!
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
My four legged kid Bruno can’t wait to meet his 2 brothers:)
A video about premature birth